December 20, 2009

2009

Approaching the end of this year 2009 brings a mixture of feelings.. Reflecting on the times that have passed always adds a new perspective, a new appreciation and a 'moment of truth'.. I shall point out the top 10 major happenings of 2009 in the world:
  • Gaza War (Jan): maintenance of injustice - have we forgotten?
  • Barack Obama is inaugurated as the 44th President of the United States (Jan): impossible is nothing
  • G-20 meets in London to deal with the 2008 Global Financial Crisis (Apr): who claims to be in charge?
  • Swine flu (H1N1) outbreak (Jun): fear weakens
  • Mahmoud Ahmadinejad's reelection as Iran's president (Jun): just power in disguise
  • The death of Michael Jackson, the king of pop (Jun): reminisce but remember the lessons
  • Over 150 Uyghurs (Muslim chinese) killed in Xinjiang (Jul): unity and belonging
  • The longest solar eclipse in the 21st century (Jul): sins of the 21st century
  • Jeddah's Floods with toll deaths of 300 and losts of 11,000 (Oct): love and pain correlation
  • Copenhagen Climate Change Summit (Dec): it's a small world!
Events happen at the macro level and they may change the directions, the feelings and the future insights in the world. Similarly, we go through the same sort of 'change' all the time, every year. It is important to keep a track of these major events not only in the world but also in our world and within us.

With every event, a lesson must be learnt. What makes an event major is the impact of how it made us feel - that is how we remember it. The loss of my dear Father (Jan.) has indeed taught me many lessons, it changed my perspective about life and made me realize how short life is. It engaged me in deeper soul-searching that almost felt like I am starting anew with every venture. It made me realize how big the gap is that he has left behind, amongst our family and within me. It taught me how it is possible "to carry him in my heart" everywhere I go. I also learnt more about the unseen world, it sets new exciting perspectives about this delusion that we call life. "Nothing is what it seems" demands new understandings that will gratify many questionings. The prerequisite to the pursuit of understanding is being fearless. One cannot decipher the truth if there are too many redlines around. Developing a mind of our own - Aloneness invites a lucid soul and a conscious mind. Indeed, it is the longest journey, that which is within.

The butterfly effect and chaos theory
It is amazing how "sensitive dependence on initial conditions" may change your entire system and 'reshuffle' the very character that you become. "Feelings are like wild horses, you must set them free" It feels like fighting a war inside, sometimes we reach victory and sometimes we are defeated. It is very easy to be one or the other, but what is most challenging is to 'maintain' the midway (balance) in between. "Life is like riding a bicycle in order to move on we have to find the right balance". Seeking that right balance is our pursuit in life, in every moment, throughout every year. From our major decisions in life to the smallest of how we feel about ourselves. Like our universe, our system is dynamic, it links everything together whether we like it or not. We may 'involve' our friends to learn through them about life and see our reflection in them to judge right. Yet, it remains important to keep the 'balance' - even in seeking those true people around us in our life that will help us find our weaknesses and improve upon it and our strengths alike.

Again, it is the impact of how things and people make us feel. "Love is fire. But whether it's going to warm your heart or burn you down you can never tell", so, we take risk because life is more exciting and more beautiful when we pursue our passion with the same degree of balance that will neither freeze your heart nor burn you down. We must feel bad and wrathful just enough to drive us to be better. Similarly, we must also feel good and proud just right enough to keep us moving forward, to give us that light to see the path, and make us believe once more that it is possible to dream. "The wings of hope and fear that enable us to fly" in a sky with no limit. Life is a choice, always has been and always will be.

Let's choose to have a great prosperous and peaceful 2010!

December 6, 2009

Just keep swimming..

Of the many lessons that life teaches me, there is one that I for sure get quiet well: keep going! There is a quote that I think precisely describe how our journey of life goes by "life is like a bicycle, in order to keep the balance, you must go on".. How true is that? Although we may get confused about the path that we are walking on, the directions that we have in mind, the ground that we are standing on, the intention that resides in our hearts, and the new thoughts, feelings, and desires that come our way.. We must keep peddling.. Just keep swimming! Otherwise, life will not wait for us.. It will keep going, so we must decide to keep up.. While 'catching up' we might loose some parts of who we are along the way.. Or rather, a part of who we 'were'.. now, that we are grown ups.. or more grown.. This is how it works.. c'est la vie!

December 4, 2009

من أكون؟

من أكون؟

ملئتني الظنون

أصبت بالجنون

حررت المكنون

استجبت للمبطون

ونعمت بحنون

وأغرمت بفتون

أشعلت الشجون

تنظرني العيون

قرأت ما يسطرون

سمعت ما يقولون

مقت ما يكنّون

وما كان سيكون

فاخترت السجون

بصبر يهون

وألم السكون

و عجز البنون

أخترت من أكون

وكيف أصون

فقلعت الحصون

وتمردت بفنون

فالآن فقط أبون

وأدرك.. الجنون

يا ربي

يا ربي يا حبيبي دثرني

برحمتك انتشلني يا رحيماً

أشعر بالبرد فدفني

أخاف خوفاً و العذاب أليماً

بات قلبي يظلمني

مظلوماً مقتولاً سهيماً

يا من تنظر إليني

اصفح عن قلبي اليتيمَ

تتكالب على ديني

فانتزعها دنيا سقيمة

وحدي وحيدة فأعني

وفهَم جهلي تفهيماً

صغائر عقلي تمتحني

ووجدان قلبي أثيماً

يا من بين كاف ونونِ

يكرم بالكرم الكريم

هب لي حسن ظن

وقلب وعقل به قيمة

ومن خزائن خيرك زدني

نوراً مشعاً لا يضيمَ

أرى الوجوه تسلخني

وحالي به أنت عليماً

ليس من أحد يفهمني

أتجرع المر السميم

غربتي حالت بيني

وبين هممي الهميمة

يقيني بك يقيني

سبحانك ودوداً رحيماً

تضع الوزر عني

وتحتضني رعاية سليمة

قد دنت الأيام مني

وأكلني الزمن الضغيم*

أسمع ضربات قلبي تئن

فأزداد شغف المتيّم تيماً

سأدعوك بإذنك حتى اليقين

وأصلي على حبيبك تسليماً



* الضغيم: اسم من أسماء الأسد.


جدة


ما فعل بك أمناؤك حبيبتي يا جدّة
هل خانوا الأمانة وهانو الكرامة؟
لا تهني ولا تحزني فأنت الصمود في الشٍدّة
وأنت الخير والرخاء وعشق أهل "العمامة"
كفكفي دموعك يا عروس البحر فأهلك أشدّة
على كل من بغى عليك وأغرقك في الطامة
يا أول موطن للجَدّة.. فلا بدًّ
أن يسأل مواطنك ويعيد استفهامه
عن سبب الهلاك وافتقار العدّة
عن الفساد وعن الجشع وعن "القمامة"
مقص الرقيب في الجراىد شديدة الحدّة
ونرى من ولّوا عليك قد عُصموا عصامة
قد أفسدوا فحاكٍِِموهم حكم أهل الردّة
قد انتهكوا الحرمات وأكلوا مال العامّة
حاكموا من خان الوطن وأفسد ودّه
وكان بالأمس يعقد التوقيع بإبهامه
يا من حملت الراية والدّم لطخ يدّه
سيسألك الشهداء ودمع الضعفاء عند القيامة
قد غرق الشهيد وعاش الفقيد في شدّة
ولن يعلم إلا الله آخر ما تمتم كلامه

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